familiar territory

so today in a conversation i found myself comparing a job change to domestic violence.

she knows it’s not helping the situation by staying.
she knows it’s not healthy.
she knows it’s not where she should be.
she knows that she should want more for herself.
she knows that’s she’s living a lie, when she smiles and says that things are fine.

but it all she knows.

she may not be comfortable, but she is familiar.

where else would she go?
what else would she do?
who else could she be?
how can she possibly start over at this point?

i find myself noticing this in more than just a job change, but in many areas of change. schools, friends, churches, towns, neighborhoods, families. the list could go on and on. the question is why do we hesitate? some will answer that they just need more time to think it through or to pray about it. others will answers in a manner of logistics- timing is wrong, economy is bad. others are in simple denial.

we have always been warned not to get too comfortable. when we do we lose our sense of desire, drive, determination, passion. it’s my opinion that being too familiar is just as detrimental to one’s soul. to one’s spirit.

we have always been told that when one ceases to grow, they die. can one really continue to grow in an all too familiar surrounding? or is it a must that they uproot, replant. in new ground.

we’ve also been told “it ain’t gonna be easy”.

Published in:  on July 15, 2009 at 9:16 pm Comments (3)

send in the replacements…

i actually got to set through an entire service tonight. from the first beat to the last amen. that doesn’t happen very often ever. but i’m only going to comment on the music.

anyway. if you really know me, you know i tell it like it is. and it was good great it rocked.

i never even noticed the “core” drummer was out, and the replacement was in.

play til the whistle blows girl!

Published in:  on July 11, 2009 at 9:17 pm Leave a Comment

write, wrong

okay so i decided i was going to start writing. right? right. so i went online to look for a “writing job” and most of what i found is… yes you guessed it, scams.

the most interesting so far is the place where i have to bid on how much i want to make in order to write an ad or an article. if i underbid, i get took. if i overbid, the job gets took! that is after i pay a membership fee to even be allowed to bid on the jobs.

another one wanted me to write about my experiences with shopping, eating out, etc. i could do that. well except for the part where they wanted me to travel, shop and eat, at my expense, in order to have something to write about. buy hey they would pay me a smooth and easy $15-$40 for my write up.

so here i am, blogging about not being able to write.

i’m not sure i’m cut out to be a starving artist.

more later.

Published in:  on July 9, 2009 at 9:21 pm Leave a Comment

i could get used to that

with laptop in hand, (insert hand clap and a yay!) i’m thinking of all these different thoughts and making up stories in my head. then it occurred to me… i should write this stuff down.

now i have always been an imaginative person. it probably comes from watching a whole lot of tv when i was younger. or maybe it comes from the longing of wanting to be one of those people on tv, or in the movie. i don’t know. but no matter the origin, i have the gift.

so in effort not to waste it, i’ve decided to start writing. i can go to different places to get different feelings to evoke the different stories: a porch to bring out a story of romance or nostalgia, a park to jog the memory of childhood, chase an ambulance to make the heart beat faster for an action adventure, watch more tv and movies! oh wouldn’t it be nice to get paid for this? yes, just to puts my thoughts in print and receive a check. i could get used to that.

short stories mind you. i don’t know that i have the mentality or the patience to right a novel. however i have been cooking up a screenplay in my head for some years now…

more to come.

Published in:  on July 1, 2009 at 5:18 pm Leave a Comment